It was really hard for me to grow up as a normal kid as I felt neither rooted nor trustful towards the world. I basically grew up in a broken world, drowning in pain. When I was a teenager I suffered from bullying, violence and sexual abuse and close people in my life passed away. By the age of 18, I was suicidal, depressed, and labeled with the diagnosis BPD which later on was considered misdiagnosed. The pain I have experienced is something I do not wish anyone to feel. Nevertheless, pain is what made me grow the most. After going through so much, you break, you shatter, you fall apart - but then you get up and realize: I survived.
And there you are: so much stronger. I am so thankful for everything I have been through because it shaped the woman I am today. It gave me the bravery the leave my home country by the age of 19 and go chase the life of my dreams to become a successful model, actress, and soon published author. If it wasn't for the pain I most likely wouldn't be where I am today. I still struggle, but at the same time, I feel so strongly empowered that I feel like after all of this nothing can ever stop me again. I am working in my dream job. I am creating my life by design.
I am learning to love myself and falling in love with life.
Today, I am 22 I am a model, actress, dancer, and writer. I have worked with photographers, makeup artists, videographers, and designers in Bali, Spain, Germany, and New Zealand.
I turned my pain into purpose and started becoming the best version of myself. The little girl that thought she would never know how it's like to be happy is now learning to bloom!
If I survived this so can you. You are so much stronger then you think. Just keep going, keep swimming...do the baby steps. I know you can do it, too!
Spread some love guys!